Hello

its been a while, i am planning a trip to jamaica at December and i refuse to avoid pictures this time. so enough is enough, i ready to get into the body God intended for me to be in, and its not this one. How do i plan on doing it you ask, because i have been up and down and at my biggest now for years. i am elimanating carbs. Today is day one, i did great despite the chili i had with the beans in it, which i know has carbs in it, but baby steps! i can say that i did not have bread sugar or milk its day one and im going strong. i wont put numbers up just yet but i will keep a picture diary. also today brie told me that fema is intrested in me. i pray and pray and pray that i get this job, its only everything i ever wanted in a job! for the next few weeks i will work a crapload of overtime, pay down some debt. marely is so restricted i feel really bad, i wish i was in great shape so that we could go running together. so eat (no carbs,) pray, love.

Ena k Ofurhie passed away 03/27/09

i am so crazy right now, one of the best things to walk into my life is gone. i can not make people understand what gone means. i think everyone thinks i should be over it. it has only been a week. i look for signs all arund me. will he just relocate a shoe from its normal spot, or will he remove the cyst feeding on my blood supply. i just dont know. i think of anything and everything i can to keep connected to him, god, maybe a palm reader i just dont know. i can confirm that the worst thing about life is the death of those you love. death is not such a horrible thing once you have family and friends already 'there' waiting for you, but ofcourse you have to leave behind other love ones that will greive for you and become depressed, like myself. NO SOLUTION. i will continue to talk to him, which to other people looks like im talking to myself, but that ok.
Ena your a beautiful amazing person, take me with you when it is my time. and will joke till 4 am again. and i will watch you rap and make awsome beats.

bless
natalie